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Nov
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Open Question: can you help with my….depression? |
Hi, I’m only 13 and I have thoughts of trying to kill myself. I hate my family. My mother has this belief thing that shes forced me to have all my life. It’s not even a religion. In this “belief” there are so many things that we can’t do, such as fight back for yourself, or have a pet, or a lot of other things. At school, it’s just like anybody that wanted to could take advantage of me and pick on me…I don’t do anything back. Now I’m just sick and tired of it because my mother doesn’t even seem to care about me feelings. It’s as if I’m just a little doll she can yell at or make do whatever she wants. Shes forced me to play instruments that I hate playing and expect me to enjoy the sound. I just can’t take it anymore and I’m crying almost everyday now.My dad broke my heart. Everybody knows that I wanted a puppy since I was like 2 and they had a dog but it was gone before I was born. Yesterday, we went to the animal shelter and chose out a puppy. everyone was happy and we filled out the adoption form for it. we considered its future and all the responsibilities. I loved that puppy to death, but today he told me that we can’t have the puppy anymore because he just doesnt want it. He thinks its going to do its business everywhere but of course it will because its still a puppy. He told me to tell him when theres a puppy availible. What baby puppy is already house trained…. My brother is just a little biatch. Whenever I try to ask him a question about my homework or asks him if he wants something, he’ll be like get the **** out of my room and then he will beat me up or push me down the stairs… we used to get along so well and now we just dont communicate anymore.I dont have that many friends because people just find me weird. I can’t really open up to anyone because they wont understand. I need a way to help my depression. I dont want to go to like consoling or whatever cause my parents will be like why would you need that.so does anyone have any advice I can use to help myself with?
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